Too much for the boards

Hello,

One time I want to post a story on mine which lead me to have a break down. It has to do with hitchhiking and sexual assult, or more emotional abuse. and sexual harrassment at a job where I was abused and degraded. And it was all a joke to them. But, that was my only option and I needed the money to feed myself. So, I put up with the abuse untill I no longer needed to work there. I was awful. They were harrassing me because I was freaking out. because i was scared. It hurt me alot. Well, this is a summary. And something I need to eventually get help from a therapist. These were things, that made the streets into hell for me. before, i was okay. But, after this I lost it.

I know what 'too much' means. So do a lot of other people here.

The release of saying it's too much is pretty awesome. Doesn't fix anything but it sure feels better.

Likely you cant get much help with what you are facing here, but you will get respect and friendship - if you talk about it or not.

The power is in your hands in these forums. You decide and you engage others as you want.

Thank you for saying what you have, I'll continue the conversation with you if you want.

I'm with Dominic here - just to come out and say what you've already said takes so much courage - so you've proved to yourself that you have immense courage, and that you're in full control of it.

It's over to you, if you want to talk about it some more. That sense of having 'lost it' - that's a hard one to get on top of, and I think maybe you don't realise how much you've already got on top of it with your post. That first step, saying it happened, acknowledging the hurt, that's a really big one. Sometimes afterwards we need to shrink back again for a while, so we can gather our resources to take another step towards healing the damage these thoughtless clowns do - and you know, by doing what you've done, speaking out here, you help other people who've had similar experiences to come to terms with what happened to them.

But hey - those people didn't degrade you - they degraded themselves. Only themselves.

Hello,

One time I want to post a story on mine which lead me to have a break down. It has to do with hitchhiking and sexual assult, or more emotional abuse. and sexual harrassment at a job where I was abused and degraded. And it was all a joke to them. But, that was my only option and I needed the money to feed myself. So, I put up with the abuse untill I no longer needed to work there. I was awful. They were harrassing me because I was freaking out. because i was scared. It hurt me alot. Well, this is a summary. And something I need to eventually get help from a therapist. These were things, that made the streets into hell for me. before, i was okay. But, after this I lost it.

I agree with the previous replies. Talking about it is the start of the healing process. I wish you the very best.

To roadtraveler

Greeting ,Hope your life is better now
i would like to know how old are you? did you have a support from your family?
did you have a partner? I saw your story, but i beleive there is more then that, which you kept it for your self,we all do this sometimes, did u tell you friends about your sexaul assult?, sometmes the best things to do , not tell anyone, only your treating therapist,cose sometimes the people you think ,you trust ,they might put you in pain ,more then the attacker,i just want you to know that , the things does not kill, make you stronger in life, other things, be careful f:)not from you enemy, but from your friends, who later become your enemy, i just want you to learn from this, as we grow we go through a lot in our life, life never meant to be easy. good luck Aida:)